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Hello my name is Koty. I am 14 years old, and am currently a freshman in high school. Life has been so tough for me.
It started off with my mom begining to use drugs. She said she needed to use them so she could always be awake, but that was
not an excuse. She began hanging out with other guys while she was married to my dad. My dad soon went to alcohol to try to
forget the fact that my mom was a drug user. My family soon fell apart. My older sister began using drugs. I dont know what
her excuse was, and i dont want to. When i was 11, and 13 i was rapped. I felt so used, and emberessed. After that i didnt
respect myslef anymore. I began having sex with my boyfriends, and it made me feel even worse. I felt like there was no way
out. When i was 14 i tried to O.D. It didnt work, and part of me was glad, but another part of me wasnt. My parents started
getting a divorce one day when me and my dad saw my mom at a house with another guy. That is when life got really hard. Me
and my mom began to argue a lot. My dad went into complete lock down, and almost drank himself to death. I didnt know how
to deal with everything. I began going back into my suicidle thoughts. I ran away once, but i didnt make it to far. At the
time i had a boyfriend, and i thought he was everything, but in the middle of all of this i found out he was cheating on me.
I felt so betrayed. I felt as if i had no place to go, and feel the way i was supposte to. I ended up being arrested on day
for hitting my mom. I was under so much pressure, and i couldnt handle it anymore. I am trying to get my life back, but things
just keep getting worst. We had to sell our house so i had to get rid of all my animals. One on my animals was my baby girl
Roxy. She ment the world to me. I saved her life, and she saved mine. I had to put Roxy down, because she had a sever eye
infection. (RIP baby girl mommy loves you, and not a day goes by that i dont think of you!<3) My dad soon got a new girlfriend.
They seemed so happy. They decided to get a condoe together. We moved all of our stuff there. After spending one night
there they broke up, and we were thrown out of the condoe. We ended up homless, and i am currently trying to find
a place to live. I feel as if there is nothing i can do, and i am always going to be depressed. Im trying to make it through
this, but it is extremely hard. My mom still hasnt realized what she has done to me, and i dont think she ever will. I hope
things soon get better, and i find someone to respect me. I will write as time goes on. Thank you for taking the time to read
the story of my life. If you can relate or you have any advice you can email me at letsparty304@yahoo.com
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